I have had twins, been on my feet all day and still never felt this tired. My bones ache with tiredness and weariness. I can feel my blood flow, like lead, to my feet and hands making them so heavy to raise, to do anything. I keep yawning, desperate for oxygen and my eyes keep shutting. I am weary, bone-weary, run over by a truck - weary.
I was told this was going to be the worst time - 8 - 10 days after chemo which the doctor said 'might be marked by a little extra tiredness.' A little extra tiredness? That is like describing Katrina as a storm or the Tsunami as a wave. This tiredness, like that storm, or that wave, actually breaks out of the word's constraints, creaks open the letters and spills over the top. The meaning is simply too great, too huge for its container.
I have climbed the stairs twice tonight. I don't normally count but tonight, each step is like a flight of stairs, each move I make like a mile's jog, and each movement requires premediation and planning. This entry is my overture to my night's work when I lay myself down and finally, longingly, stretchingly and lovingly, lay my tired limbs to rest....
Minerva
13 comments:
huge hugs to you, sweet Minerva...
peace...
I wish I could help you, Minerva, and take some of the weight off your heavy limbs. You have described that tiredness so well that I feel it. I love the line about "breaking out of the word's constraints....". Hang in there. This too shall pass.
Thinking of you, sending energy vibes... rest up well, sweetheart.
All love,
Minxxxxxxx
oh love, what a fine pickle to be trapped in. take it slow and take it easy (as if you needed telling)and keep those spirits up.
gonna beat it
gonna beat it
gonna beat it.
you will!
x
You're in my thoughts and prayers as you go thru this overwhelming fatigue dear lady!
(Your exaustion was almost palpable in your words. One thing is for sure, Cancer has not touched your skill in writing)
Sending big (((HUGS))) your way!
3T
So, you won't be going dancing? Shucks, I thought maybe you and I could do a little two-step (although, at my age, mine would probably be more like a "quickstep."). Luck, Minnie.
I'll bet you even know how many keystrokes were used in that post ;)
Rest up dear Minerva.
Oh please let this pass soon. Your description and your bravery overwhelm me. Cyber hugs and back rubs. I will be checking in soon to see how you are doing, but for now sleep and rest as long as you possibly can.
There was such a feeling of lassitude in your words...I feel tired just reading them.
I hope you move through this sooner, rather than later.
Your words are so rich with meaning Min,
Get your rest - lots of rest.
Oh no...checked this post yesterday and no new post yet!!! Minerva's still asleep! Wake up babe (Jo shakes computer screen)!
Perhaps we should all come over and install a stair lift for her? My mum's just had one put in - they're fun. You can send your shopping upstairs on them and everything!
(Actually, I'll just watch if we do that cos I'm about as much use at DIY as the proverbial chocolate teapot. I can hold the screwdriver though).
Hope today's been a bit better Min. It's simply a phase babe...try to keep that in mind
Cyber hugs x
I've found if a doctor says "there may be some discomfort" it will hurt like HELL!
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