In the middle, I sit on the fulcrum of the chemotherapy see saw. 10 days since the last dose of toxin in my veins and a mere 10 days to go until the next batch. It is tougher every time; the tiredness seeps into my muscles and my bones and whilst I find it hard to sleep at night, I can't get up the following morning and I have no energy for anything bar sitting, reading and writing.
I am trying to come up with some ideas to keep myself busy and one of those is here.. I have so many books, so many of which I have longed to read for ages, so I thought that combining reading and writing in one place was a good idea... Do be gentle though; my self esteem is incredibly fragile still. It is hard feeling good about yourself when one looks like a stubbly egg head!
Still, back to the balance and fulcrum. The next treatment means that I will be half way through; three behind me and three in front. The see saw will swing and turn and my way down to the ground of my normal life will be clear ahead...
10 days to build up the resistance, to collect the troops and marshall the forces for the enemy. 10 days to the next battle....
Minerva
17 comments:
home from the dentist, in pain - will visit later
Cheering for you and your army of white blood cells!
Self esteem? Sounds like I need to pay a visit to your part of the world....!! ;-)
I hope the reading and writing make the time pass quickly. I can't wait till it's over.
You're doing great. As ever, you don't even know your own strength.
Rooting for you from all the way over here.
Love you,
Minx
KEEP ON WITH THE BOOK REVIEWS. Say, one a week if you can.
So far so good, but I look forward to disagreeing strongly with some of your future verdicts.
The troops are massing, Min.....
[looks proudly over the White Blood Cell Brigade]
I like the look of 'cover2cover' :-)
There are books on my blog 'wot I am reading now' :-) Might be worth a visit.
[dusts off pompom] I still have my 'go Min go' pompoms and I'm trained to use them!!
cq
Thinking of you and hoping the next 10 days pass uneventfully. And then wishing you mega success in the next battle.
Enjoy your reading...it certainly has a way of taking us "away" and allowing us to escape. Even temporarily.
Sending you all positive thoughts, Minerva.
i like the new blog
Wishing you strength, my father-in-law just went into remission and I remember how hard it was for him.
10 days to go till those damned stupid cells get another kicking. Don't they get it yet? They're outta here.
Should I get the cheerleading team together and get a few new routines sorted?! Always there for you Min.
(Thanks for your kind words to my latest outpouring hon. I really appreciate it.)
Keep battlin'. You're gonna win.
Thinking of you.
"Fahrenheit 451" was a movie that made me cry. Before I got to read the book, since where I grew up press was censored. The movie somehow slipped through the cracks.
But read: "Love, Medicine, and Miracles," by Bernard Siegel, a book that would have been outlawed in that far-left-behind, matter-over-spirit world.
You're doing wonderfully, Minerva! Over half way through.
I just found your blog via Ms. Cornelius in the TT and wanted to say I've added you to my prayers and thoughts as you battle on, Minerva.
If you enjoyed Bradbury, try some of his short stories (my faves are Sound of Thunder and The Pedestrian, but I like most of them). I teach them to my lovelies at school and they really enjoy them as well.
Thank you so much for your message on the death of my Dad. And now I see you're fighting the dreaded C too.... I would like to put a link to your blog on my own blog if I may.
Sometimes in life we are faced with Giants that seem to big to defeat. We all have different giants in our life. The best thing to do is trust God and let him guide us. With God by our side, noting is impossible.
I will pray for you. May you have a blessed day.
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