Still On Edge
I am so touchy at the moment. I can't seem to take perfectly normal comments and laugh them off as usual. I snap or bite back and can't control myself. I don't do it to people I don't know but those I love most in the world and I have no idea why.
I know that my beloved daughters are off tomorrow to their father's for a week and that may have something to do with it, or the return to work next week, or even that the curtain that shrouds the Christmas season from the rest of the year is slowly closing. Certainly, next year will be an even tougher year than this one. I have no idea if I will be celebrating next Christmas in a wheelchair, or even bed bound or walking. I don't know if the money I am currently being paid will go far enough in the forseeable future or even if there is a forseeable future.
I just can't see it, and wonder what it all holds for me. What will 2008 bring in its wake?
2007 brought debilititating difficult docetaxel which as a chemo is devastating. It took away my mobility, my freedom and my innocence and it disabled me.
Probably why I am a little stressed!