2008
2007 is waving goodbye: its pale fingers just disappearing over the horizon as 2008 blazes into view. I am thrilled to be saying goodbye. 2007 was a horrid year for me marked by docetaxel, disability and dread. 2007 wasn't just stained by cancer, it was soaked by it, drenched in it and even though I face 2008 with the same diagnosis, I feel more accepting of the future.
A New Year still holds a thrill, even after all the years I have seen come and go. The white blank page of those days waiting in front still hold a fascination. Who will remember us this year? What world will await us in December having started with such high hopes in January? Outside, in London the days are still short, grey and gloomy but in this heart, at least, hope of change, hope of simply hope burns like a candle in a windless room.
I want to revel in my family and friends this year. I don't want to take any more of my life for granted than I have already and those habits which I have, which induce guilt and shame are things I want to change and break this year. I won't pretend to be perfect, brave or courageous this year but simply deal with the obstacles as they break, like waves, before my bare feet. It may be a wonderful year: it may be a dreadful year, but for now, the future is entirely unwritten. It is a page yet to be filled with dreams.
My hand, and my pen, are ready.
Minerva
18 comments:
I love the image of you and your pen, ready and waiting to write on the clean pages of 2008 :-))
Hon, we will be here for 2008, just as we were for 2007 - cheering you on from the sidelines.
'Be there at our waking, and give us we pray,
Your bliss in our hearts, Lord, at the break of the day.'
New year, new day.
cq
Happy 2008, Minerva, no matter what trials it may bring.
:-) We have similar analogies ;-)
Wishing you the on so very best for a 2008 that proves to be fulfilling and beautiful, full of love and joy and prosperity and better health.
(((Hugs to you)))
:-) We have similar analogies ;-)
Wishing you the on so very best for a 2008 that proves to be fulfilling and beautiful, full of love and joy and prosperity and better health.
(((Hugs to you)))
We WILL be here for sure Minerva!
I know that your family needs you but so do we!
And you have never pretended to be brave. You ARE brave.
God bless you in 2008 Minerva...Love Terry
I wish you the happiest of new years Minerva.
Hoping for happiness and health for you this coming year - and importantly a continuation of inner peace.
Very best wishes.
PS: The post Ive wrote on 2nd January may be of interest to you - it reflects what you've said in a poem:
http://j9marshall.wordpress.com/2008/01/02/life/#comments
Thank you for finding time in your busy busy life to stop by my little piece of the world!
Things that cause shame I might resolve to change, but pleasure is too little in this world to feel guilty about...
Your analogy of "the waves" made me remember a favorite writer and her book of that name. I always thought one could pull each of the beginning essays in it to make something just as beautiful in it's own right.
May your hand be strong, bold, beautiful, and may your inkwell never run dry!
alan
I read your blog regularly, although I am one of those that reads your words and rarely leaves a comment...
However, today I would like to change that. I'd like to thank you. I'd like to thank you from the bottom of my heart, because reading your words and thoughts written on your blog have changed the way I live my life, my attitude to life and my thoughts about life.
Reading your blog has taught me to stop and smell the flowers.... to say a little thank you for all the blessings in my life... To stop and take in special moments, observing them and trying to etch those memories into the memory box in my brain.
I am more greatful for family, friends and ALWAYS have time for them no matter what i'm doing, it can wait... they are FAR more important.
you have also taught me that no matter what is thrown in our path, we find ways to deal with it, get around it, live with it... and to even sometimes have a sense of humor about it!
For all of the above, I thank you Minerva.
I wish you the happiest of New Years Minerva. Lord knows you deserve it. May you fill that blank page with wonderful memories.
Hi Minerva: I agree wholeheartedly about saying goodbye to 2007. It was difficult for so many and the New Year is very much like the proverbial clean sheet of paper for your pen. I enjoy reading that you have a super boyfriend and the girls sound adorable! You have much to do and I just wanted to peek in here and send you my very best, as always. Thanks for including us on your journey. You sound solid and very positive, and I feel this same way for you! :)
Anticipation is a powerful word that involves all the fringes of our hopes and dreams and the body of our existence. In that spirit and with a heart full of love I'm anticipating hopes and dreams in every word you write in this new year of 2008. Happy New Year Minerva, A Woman Of Implacable Parts Revealed.
The New Year is a blank canvas reasy to be painted.
Happy 2008.
Happy New year Minerva...
I consider each day a new day of beginnings, at night when we go to sleep our slate is once again erased and in the morning a clean slate awaits us. I used to wait on the new years and celebrate a new start, but when I was diagnosed with illness with no cure I have such a total outlook on New beginnings. I don't know what tomorrow holds... But I know who holds tomorrow.. Thanks for your realness and for just being you..
Let's write it down, the way we want this year to be, and then wait with anticipation for it to unfold, or as you say, break against our feet, only in splendid waves.
I love sweet anticipation, I love the way you wrote this. You've made me look to the new year with giddy hope and clarity. I'll be writing it the way I want it to be somewhere in my journal of life. xx hugs you.
Hello Minerva...Just thinking about you this afternoon and hoping things are fine for you...love Terry
cq said it well,
blessings in the new year
Happy New Year for this 2008...Reval in it...profit from it, have new adventures and experiences in it..write about it. we will read it and hopefully give u our insights, and encouragements, and just share in your feelings.
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